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Anonymous asked: Do you believe in magic?

Short answer? No.

Depends on what you mean by magic though. If you mean like witches-and-wizards kind of magic, then no, i’m not into that. The whole new-agey, wiccan/ aliens kinda stuff also doesn’t really intrigue me, and I don’t find myself wanting to put crystals around my room to get my chakras vibrating right.

That said, I believe in things like the “magic” of Love (with a capital L), and I believe in fate. And as I discussed in the last question, I believe in The Great Beyond that some people call God or the Universe or what have you. 

So I guess you could say I believe in magic, but I don’t like that word, because I think it trivializes the things in life that go beyond the concrete. Magic is a word I associate with Harry Potter and such like. But Fate, and Love, and The Great Beyond, are things that are True (with a capital T.) They don’t exist rationally, it’s true; but there are things that go beyond rationality, that are untouchable by intellect alone. I put my faith in these things.

I hope that answers your question. 

Anonymous asked: Do you believe in a higher power?

You’re damn right I do. I didn’t used to, because I was raised in a family and a situation where it wasn’t that important to believe in anything, and where I honestly didn’t really need it. But seeing as things have repeatedly gotten really really bad for me in the past year or so, I’ve found that not only did I need to be in touch with whatever lies beyond, but that it was able to find me more easily. Now I feel that I am part of something broader than myself.

I don’t belong to a religion. I was raised in the Unitarian Universalist Church, which I still identify with, but I am not a practicing member. I also read a broad variety of spiritual and liturgical text, and I’ve found myself getting something out of books like The Bible, the Bhagavad Gita, the Tao Te Ching, the Book of Changes, and the Egyptian Book of the Dead. I’ve also begun to delve into philosophy, which feeds my more rational side; The Myth of Sisyphus by Albert Camus was a life-changer, and I’m working through Being and Nothingness by Jean-Paul Sartre right now (very slowly.)

If your’e noticing that all the philosophy books I paired with the religious books are atheist, you would be right. I have the somewhat odd distinction of simultaneously calling myself both “theist” and “atheist,” or rather, neither. The world is too vast, awesome, terrible, and magnificent to try to stake a claim on one side or the other. I’d rather be in touch with simply The Great Beyond, instead of trying to whittle this greatness down into a shape I can understand. Because the fact is, we can’t understand it, and we never will. But having it in our lives is enriching and gives you a reason to keep exploring, learning, and living.

I hope that answers your question.


With zero context, Coldplay have released a new song, “Midnight” - watch the video.


With zero context, Coldplay have released a new song, “Midnight” - watch the video.


MIDNIGHT – Coldplay

In the darkness before the dawn

In the swirling of the storm

When i´m rolling with the puches and hope is gone

Leave a light a light on

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Anonymous asked: How are you holding up?

Man, That is a hard question in a circumstance like this. What can I say? Since Tumblr isn’t restricted to my friends, acquaintances, and family like Facebook is, I can’t be too careful about what I put out there.

Suffice it to say that my mental health concerns became much more serious as a result of recent events mainly characterized by a series of compulsions that became progressively more lethal. 

I’ve survived, but I’m haunted day in and day out by what happened to me (I guess you could say “What I did,” although that is too horrifying). I can still taste death in the water I drink and in the air I breathe. Life and Death are interceding in ways that I am not yet prepared to handle. The only thing to do is keep my head up and move on with life. Fixating on the few moments of absolute Horror that changed everything will only increase their hold on me into the future.

I apologize for having to be intentionally vague, and I hope that answers your question.

Great album XD

Great album XD

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Anonymous asked: Has anyone ever told you how incredible you are? Just reading your posts and the answers to these questions has restored some of my faith in humanity, knowing that there are people like you in this world

Whoever this is, thank you so much! It means a lot. I was having kind of a crappy day and this just made it all better. You’re the best XD